Last weekend we planted tons of plants. We planted flowers, shrubs and veggies. We have been talking sweet to them and feeding them tons of Miracle Grow.
And last weekend Momma and Daddy came up to celebrate my birthday and Mothers day. We worked on the veggie section and a sink hole. My spastic butt had a run in with a garden tiller, it won and my consolation prize was a tetanus shot. Awesome. We planted zucchini seeds, look at them grow!
And cucumbers, they are going to be so cute! We also planted strawberries, tomatoes and basil. Can't wait to harvest! More to come, I am obsessed with watching these little seedlings!
If today is your birthday horoscope: Get pumped up and explore your need for physical outlets and leadership skills in this year ahead. Put a new exercise regimen into place during July when you will be at your best and able to shine at all executive endeavors. All your irons in all those fires can be put to good use in late June and the first half of July when you can successfully initiate important plans that greatly improve your future.
Today is my 29th birthday! I can't believe it. That sounds OLD. Only one more year and its the big 3-0. Everyone says that your 30's are the best years of your life. I can see that. My twenties have been spent getting my "big girl life" started. I graduated college, starting my career, met the love of my life and got married. That a lot of big stuff but it is just the beginning.
Year 29 will be spent getting healthy, finding a new job and getting more comfortable in my skin. I have been blessed beyond measure, I know that. I have the most amazing friends (some that I have been friends with for over 20 years!) an amazing family and the most spectacular hubby and puppy child.
So CHEERS, here's to the last year of my twenties! I am celebrated by going to CFA headquarters for lunch with Poochie and Cris and then Chad and I partook in some liquid cheese tonight. Rock on!
So I don't really like to be Debbie Downer on here, I try to be lighthearted and funny, but today will be more serious. Skip if you would like.
This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. Infertility is defined as trying to conceived for over one year unsuccessfully. Well, you are looking at 16 months here folks (well maybe 15, with the whole I have no job as of 10/1 thing Baby Eubanks is kind of on hold). It has been a struggle- on my body, my emotions, our marriage and my faith.
Did you know that 85% of people will experience some sort of trouble having a baby? Neither did I, I mean I am friends with Fertile Myrtles. It is so hard and makes you feel so alone. We are at the age when everyone has kids, we have had 9 friends have babies in the past year. 3 more will this summer. I am so incredibly happy for my friends, I really am, I swear! But it is still so hard. I became the one everyone is afraid to tell that they are pregnant and I HATE that. I don't want to seem bitter because I really am not. I think sad is the best way to describe it, you have this longing. Its not jealousy or bitterness, just longing.
Last summer we did 3 rounds of Clomid. It only made me ovulate once. All it was successful in doing is making me gain TONS of weight, have hot flashes and cry a lot. So that was awesome. Then I went to a new doctor who did tons of tests and in December I was diagnosed with PCOS and was put on new medicine. And on this medicine you can't eat sugar, fatty foods or salads or else you will be running for the loo. Yeah more fun!
But in January I found a peace, at the one year mark. I know that God has a perfect plan for me, one that I cannot see (and one I think I could have learned without the whole job aspect...) and I know that we will be parents one day.
This is the most difficult time of year and I will say that I don't particularly care for church on Mothers day...but again, I know He is doing something with me and our little family. Longing to be a mother is one of the loneliest things I have ever experienced, Chad doesn't have maternal instincts and he stays off the google machine so he doesn't comprehend the MILLIONS of people who try for years and never get pregnant.
So I try to be hopeful, pray and put all my trust in Him and I know that when that little baby does join our family it will be so loved and appreciated by us, our family and our friends that it will be the luckiest baby on Earth!
For all you fertiles out there, this video sums up how I feel better than I can.
{Robert Lee Jenkins: August 26 , 1926- April 14, 2010}
Mr. Bob passed away this week, he was my sweet Grandmama's husband. They got married when I was in the 4th grade so he has been in my family for almost 20 years! We will be celebrating his life tomorrow at the same church we had Grandmama's funeral at, and the same preacher. I don't think I am going to handle that well...
It makes me so happy to know that they are probably dancing in heaven right as we speak, Grandmama LOVED to dance.
Rest in peace Mr. Bob, take good care of Grandmama and tell her I say hello and that I miss her everyday.
On Saturday of Easter weekend we went up to Clarkesville to Katie and David's wedding. It was a beautiful ceremony, tons of flowers and nature, and a fun reception.
Chad sported a bow tie, and looked so handsome!
Me and the bride.
Katie and my parents.
On Easter we went to church then I drove down to my parents and then to the inlaws for the family Easter celebration.
Me and Poochie in our Lilly and seersucker. Preppy by birth.
We planted zucchini seeds, look at them grow!
We planted zucchini seeds, look at them grow!
And cucumbers, they are going to be so cute! We also planted strawberries, tomatoes and basil. Can't wait to harvest! More to come, I am obsessed with watching these little seedlings!
